...so it's weird....

...your children grow up and start to make mistakes you can no longer control

...it's a difficult time cos you want to chip in all the time and make sure things get done, but on the other hand I should keep my nose out as it's non of my business anymore.....I find this so hard cos I'm a doer and like things sorted and filed so I can get on with the rest of 'stuff'....

There was a function this week, afternoon was booked off work, nails were painted pretty in pink (even toe nails!) but driving back from work....I was just thinking, flippin' heck what do I say when people ask how am I? I need to perfect chirpy, witty answer instead of the grimace.... people expect you to be cheerful, happy and fulfilled....none of these fit the bill, instead it's anxiety, worry and have I still got my job?

Needless to say I didn't go to the function and realised why I like people with dogs, we just talk about the dogs not ourselves, makes life sooooo much simpler. Feeling the need now to add another woofer to the pack.....can't do this till I move house, can't move house till bastard's leg is better and house can go on market.... this time last year was thinking...I don't want to be doing this hedge trimming again and, what am I doing this weekend?....hedge trimming springs to mind.... sound of head banging loudly against wall lol!!

grimaces: 10

car noises: 0
hedge trimming: done for the moment