in similar circumstances....

..so you think your life is weird and mad....

but then you meet up with old friends and find out their lives are just as mental, some situations almost make mine seem positively normal!! Partners cheat, lie, become untrustworthy, maybe it's an age thing in that we get to an age and say enough!!! Stop it or go.

Friends are selling up, moving on, much quicker than me I might add, they are more determined I suppose.... I'm lazy, the thought of all that upheaval is too overwhelming, if I had the resources I'd just buy somewhere and be long gone, that would solve it, just go!!

So, he's sent a text to the estate agent.....a text FFS!!!! How committed is that to selling, he hates paperwork and I ain't doing it for him!!... I've started to clean the garden up again, this time I'm taking big trees out, it's quite satisfying if I remember not to saw into my fingers lol!!

Car: dint in tow bar being taken from behind
Sleep: some
Mental stability: 2

....of a similar title....

Can't believe there's a really popular book out with a similar title,
no way this blog will ever be as racey though ha ha!! Everyone (well some) talking about it, maybe I should read it and stop drinking beer and watching Dave of an evening...and cuddling up to labradors!!

Offspring been up to it again, firstborn son moved back home for 2 days then back out again to uninhabitable house full of bedbugs, euwk!!.... firstborn daughter still working like mad on council house to get it up to scratch, must say it's looking loads better but feel I now have new appendage paintbrush arm and bleached finger nails (makes a change from dogs though I suppose!!) and seeing as it's not stopped raining for two months it's filled the weekends up with things to do other than go walking...need a change of scenery now for that, feel quite confined with no shows to go to.

Oh joy, after footie and tennis it's now the Olympics.....feel in need of more beer :-)

Car noises: 0  Midge bites: loads  Trench foot: possibly  New sealskinz: definitely!

...so it's weird....

...your children grow up and start to make mistakes you can no longer control

...it's a difficult time cos you want to chip in all the time and make sure things get done, but on the other hand I should keep my nose out as it's non of my business anymore.....I find this so hard cos I'm a doer and like things sorted and filed so I can get on with the rest of 'stuff'....

There was a function this week, afternoon was booked off work, nails were painted pretty in pink (even toe nails!) but driving back from work....I was just thinking, flippin' heck what do I say when people ask how am I? I need to perfect chirpy, witty answer instead of the grimace.... people expect you to be cheerful, happy and fulfilled....none of these fit the bill, instead it's anxiety, worry and have I still got my job?

Needless to say I didn't go to the function and realised why I like people with dogs, we just talk about the dogs not ourselves, makes life sooooo much simpler. Feeling the need now to add another woofer to the pack.....can't do this till I move house, can't move house till bastard's leg is better and house can go on market.... this time last year was thinking...I don't want to be doing this hedge trimming again and, what am I doing this weekend?....hedge trimming springs to mind.... sound of head banging loudly against wall lol!!

grimaces: 10

car noises: 0
hedge trimming: done for the moment

..it's all most peculiar...

...trying to find the humour in things....

Rain: a lot • Mud:even more • Sun:finally came out to play • Car noises:0

Well we're in May, well into May and the heating is back on at home, how did that happen, where did these big frosts come from, go away it's supposed to be Spring ha ha!!

So I'm looking at the garden....and still looking at it....the beauty of being supposedly newly single last year, was that I would never have to tackle these tangled weeds again....but here they are, popping up as they do all over...last weeks dandelion massacre has got me nowhere and it's looking like the spraygun needs to make a re-appearance, if I haven't got rid of it on freecycle in mass clearout...

Then all of a sudden, social invite......oh crikey that's good (first response) and then...oh no!!! Groan what do I wear...sound like typical middle-aged female moan, but I have nothing to wear, I have numerous pairs of technical running pants/shorts/winter thermal and fleeces to match but, I have no proper clothes that fit. Waist seems to be making a run for it, all by itself and has expanded several times over winter so new pants bought at Christmas are now teeny weeny...

Oh no....shoes....do I have to wear shoes....I only wear boots and wellies, even to go shopping cos at Aldi no-one notices, not like snooty Sainsbury's where even the till operators are dressed with more fashion sense than me...and are certainly cleaner too ha ha!! Going training in very dirty horse arenas had the effect of super dirty ingrained mucky fingers from putting the weaves away and pulling the dogs off eating things they shouldn't.

So watch this space, I need to go shopping....oh I dislike shopping soooo much!!...and then there's the haircut....

Life is strange...

Life is strange, people say more than fiction and I used to wonder how on earth people had such complex lives....until mine went tits up too!!

Having 3 labradors as my main companions can't be viewed as normal in most people's eyes but, luckily for me, my friends are in total agreement and have canine buddies of their own. They don't lie, cheat or try and spend all you money by whiley means (even though the bank balance does tend to be spent on them out of choice lol).

So at the moment, my partner of over 31 years has dumped me....a year ago! We are still living in the same house....my daughter has had a baby, had a house, wrecked the house and moved in with her just-come-out-of-prison boyfriend's grandma....my house is full of everyone's furniture so can't sell the house...ex partner has had 2 leg ops and now his wound won't heal up, you get the idea ha ha!!!

So this blog is a way of keeping sane in words, I love my life, scarred as it is, I love my children as long as they stay away from my bank account (son at Uni on obscure music-tech course) and I have some great friends, all made through either having breast cancer or through my life in dog agility (best way to keep sane in insane world!!)

Today first off-spring grand-daughter has a cold so daughter has finally rung after 2 weeks silence (in which I refused to give in to her - result!)....ex.partner Mr Grumpy annoyed me intently on way to work this morning by actually just being in the house and looking outside it's grey, rainy and v murky...

Good news though, car noise :0!!

Son will be world famous music producer (if he can possibly venture out of bed sometime soon)...

Excellent :-)